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it's not a union, it's a rebellion. i have never felt overly politcal but i have never felt disconnected. fashion is my outlet when it comes to the worlds problems. music is my outlet when it's personal. i drift between the two, i have a love/hate relationship for both. they come in waves.

over my time off this past winter i thought alot and not alot. a goal of reinventing myself became an obsession of avoiding myself, my time was spent being distracted, baking, going to the gym and most importantly, drinking coffee. who is BEX, who is BEX in 2026. i couldn't figure it out. so i didn't. i relaxed.

realisation hit me, the only way to work it out is to just 'do'. obstacles tried to trip me up, something so simple as a broken heater detered me from sewing for three weeks, but time passed and i got to work. it may of been freezing but great art is created in pain. atleast that's what i told myself. with spice girls blarring through my speakers i embarked on a denim expedition. geri halliwell but punk. 90s is mine, 90s is raw, 90s is my new muse.

as an avid sewer you would assume i am familiar with pattern work.. wrong.. never touched one but 2026 is the year for new adventures. located a simple a-line dress pattern on etsy and away i went. using locally

 sourced blue denim my dress base was coming to life quickly, i sewed and grew more and more anxious about the damned zipper, my biggest pet peeve. alas it was not a challenge and another new skill was unlocked. for 4 days i then avoided the dress. partly because i didn't want to ruin and tamper with it and partly avoiding the fiddly part of creation, the decoration. from a collection of second hand denim jeans i chose my colours, red and white, and got to work cutting out my 'union jack'. with ease, i chopped away and stitched it all in place. internally i procrastinate, avoiding simple tasks, when i complete them i am filled with confusion, 'why did i put that off for so long?'.

the final touch, a pocket. stolen from an unwanted pair of red jeans. a pocket with a purpose, a pocket for my in ear pack, hooray. i finally remembered to add one! it's not a union - complete. she is ready for the show.

this dress is a statement of freedom, not reform. paired with red tights and chunky underground england boots i felt euphoric, i felt sexy, i felt powerful. i felt like me. the stage was not ready for my stomp. from the first note played i was in it, i was wrapped up in the lights, the cameras, the sounds, i was back. i felt nothing and everything all at once. i felt rebellion. her name was born. the first stamp of 2026 BEX - it's not a union, it's a rebellion.

with the show being livestreamed my anxiety was high, for weeks before i didn't sleep a full night. was it the dress, was it not? i will never know. but from that first note my anxieties were washed away.

in order to find myself i had to lose myself. i will do it all again, to bigger extremes, to smaller extremes. everyday i lose a little of myself to make space for who i am becoming. i vowed to never be the same, never be predictable, never be dull. as we enter this new year, this open era of BEX, drop your expectations and take it for what it is. the stones will be thrown your way, they are only passing, because we will all change and we will grow together.

for right now i believe in my rebellion, for right now i believe in us. that is enough. that is our driving force. never forget to be creative, get our of your own head and live.

peace and love
BEX xoxo

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